“I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Your works are wonderful, I know that full well
I was around 9 or 10 years old when I realised that academically, I wasn’t doing too well compared to my peers and classmates at school. I was falling behind and often struggled to pay attention in class. Throughout my schooling career, there were some teachers who cared and tried their best to help me while others probably thought I was a lost and hopeless case. It was around this time that I started to believe the lie that I wasn’t good enough. I wasn’t intelligent enough, I was a slow learner and that I could not do maths. Maths was the subject I struggled the most in school. When I started to believe this lie, it filtered into other areas of my life and I started to believe that there wasn’t much that I was good at.
I was an athlete and the lie that I was not good enough began to affect my performance in sports, particularly running. I stopped trying my best when it came to running and other sports because I really believed that I wasn’t good at running. I went from excelling in sports to being mediocre. The truth is that running was an outlet for me. It gave me the freedom to express myself in areas of my life where I wasn’t able to or did not have the opportunity to express myself.
As I grow older, I have to come to realise that I am enough because of what Christ has done on the cross for me. He has shed his blood for my weaknesses, my failures and even my successes in life. I do not need to live up to the standards of the world, I look up and live to who God says I am. I am fully created in his image and my identity lies in him. He makes up for my shortcomings and regards me as qualified in his eyes. When I am qualified, I don’t need to strive or to look elsewhere to know who I a and to know who Christ has created me to be.
FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE
I thank you God that you have created me with purpose and intention
I thank you that I was on your mind before I was formed in my mother’s womb
You thought long and hard before you decided that I was ready to be brought into this world
I thank you God because you knew what my characteristics and my personality would be,
What my journey in life would look like
I thank you that I am NOT a mistake
That I am your work of art- a Masterpiece you call “WONDERFUL“!
I thank you God because everything that you have created about me is indeed
You moulded and shaped me into what you wanted me to become
I was a mystery to the world
But to you, God I am not a mystery- I am FULLY known
You know my comings and my goings
You know what I need and when I need it
You knew what I was to become – you chose ME!
Every detail of my life has been laid before your eyes
Everything you had planned and prepared for me is not a mystery to you, oh God
And so I thank you
that in your image,
I AM FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE!